Sometimes, to make yourself happy, you have to see a smile on someone else's face, and know that you put it there.

So it's Christmas coming up soon it's roughly about 45 days away? and only about 21 until the first of December. My parents asked me if I wanted anything in particular this year, and I couldn't think of anything. Maybe it's because I'm getting older I don't know.
Thinking about it quite a lot, I realised why I couldn't think of anything. This year, I've had to cope with illness, stress, family problems and the death of both my grandparents. But why should that make me special? Well, it doesn't, not any more special than the next person. I know, that what I have gone through is hard, but so what? I'm pretty darn sure there are people in the world, who have suffered much more misfortune than me. It could even be as bad as comparing a penny to a thousand pounds.
So now I know what I want. This year I would like to have a nice Christmas, I want to make sure all my friends and family are happy. But more than anything this Christmas I wish and hope that for all those out there that are suffering or going through a lot in some way or form, are happy and will have one of the best christmas' they will ever have.
One of the reasons I make my self smile everyday, is in hope that it will affect the mood of others around me. Everyone deserves to be happy, even if i'm not :)

People.

Time for a new tone to my posts. I don't whinge all the time I promise! But I have to vent somehow! :) 

So yeah. People - They make me happy. By people I mean friends, family and neighbors. I have  so many amazing friends that care and look out for me as much as I do for them. Sometimes, I don't think they realise how much I truly appreciate it. I know I'm not the only person in the world with problems and I know that they're are people much worse off, that don't have anyone to talk too. Just the little things in our everyday life that sometimes we forget to appreciate, but in actual fact, if these "little things" weren't there, our lives would be completely different. I think it's about time people started telling their friends how much they truly mean to them. Or just saying something nice to them, compliment them, tell them how amazing they are. You never know you could have just made their day! I have a few friends that are always asking how I am, telling me I'm beautiful when I feel ugly, telling me to smile when I'm down and letting me know every thing's going to be okay when all is wrong. 

My gran passed away this year, and I'd reached a new low - Emotion wise.

The next day, I had a full day of DVD's snuggly P.J's and baking ahead of me. One of my best friends was there for me, at the click of a finger. It made me realise that I wasn't alone and  I had support throughout my hard times.

I love my friends, family and neighbors. More than words can describe. I wrote this blog to show my appreciation. Because looking back over the years, I'd have amounted to nothing without them.